Tonight we went to the Memorial Coliseum to see Thomas and Friends Live A Circus Comes to Town. You were in love and I was in love with you.
We did go to work today but we got off early and slept away the afternoon until we had to leave to go see Thomas. We went to Burgerville for dinner. We also rode the Max, the local public transportation in Portland. You loved that too.
While we were at the show, you got a red tshirt, a light wand thing, a straw, cotton candy, AND a really cool train hat.
I love spoiling you. I was spoiled. Your dad hates that.
I'm tired so we're going to go to bed...but I wanted to log what we did today. I'd have pictures for you, but they were mean and wouldn't let us take pictures which makes me sad, cause I think it would have been cool for you to be able to look back on that.
Goodnight baby, I love you.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
true love
This will be short as we have to get to bed to go to work tomorrow.
Tonight you asked for a baby. I see how much love you have for things. You love babies. While at work all you want to do is hold the babies. I wish I could give you a baby..but all good things come with time.
Last night you had a nose bleed. It was scary. Mommy doesn't like seeing you hurt.
Tomorrow night we'll be seeing Thomas and Friends live on stage at the Portland Rose Garden Arena...we're both very excited. You LOVE Thomas. I love that you love Thomas since I have spent quite a great deal of money on your trains and train table.
I love you and I want you to know that I will always try with all my power to make and keep you happy. I love making you happy.
I love you.
Tonight you asked for a baby. I see how much love you have for things. You love babies. While at work all you want to do is hold the babies. I wish I could give you a baby..but all good things come with time.
Last night you had a nose bleed. It was scary. Mommy doesn't like seeing you hurt.
Tomorrow night we'll be seeing Thomas and Friends live on stage at the Portland Rose Garden Arena...we're both very excited. You LOVE Thomas. I love that you love Thomas since I have spent quite a great deal of money on your trains and train table.
I love you and I want you to know that I will always try with all my power to make and keep you happy. I love making you happy.
I love you.
Monday, February 16, 2009
give me boob
Just like the title says...and you say this phrase quite a bit too...GIVE ME BOOB is what you are screaming at me right now...please mommmy boob..please boob.
This is quite an accomplishment to me. You are 32 months old and still breastfeeding.
This post will be short, but here is a story....
You came 8 weeks early. Mommies milk came in right away and I was pumping enough for you to eat. You ate an ounce every three hours. Of course you ate more as time passed.
I was still pumping when you came home. You couldn't breastfeed very well, you were very tiny, but mommy didn't mind pumping for you.
When you were 4 months old, mommies supply started to drop. Majorly. She had to actually give you formula because mommy couldn't pump enough for you to eat.
I cried. I felt like a failure. Formula made you SO SICK. I looked for others to say that it was ok to stop breastfeeding you. That I wouldn't be a bad mom or a failure. I can't even explain what that felt like.
Well mommy sought out alot of help from everyone. I started taking a medicine called Domperidone. It was a miracle. It got my supply up so I could pump enough for you. Around that time you also started nursing like a champ.
I look back and I think I would have regreted stopping breastfeeding. I love everytime you nurse. It's our special time that no one else can have with you.
I love listening to you breathing and even though you squirm quite a bit now, I still love every moment and wouldn't trade it for the world.
This is quite an accomplishment to me. You are 32 months old and still breastfeeding.
This post will be short, but here is a story....
You came 8 weeks early. Mommies milk came in right away and I was pumping enough for you to eat. You ate an ounce every three hours. Of course you ate more as time passed.
I was still pumping when you came home. You couldn't breastfeed very well, you were very tiny, but mommy didn't mind pumping for you.
When you were 4 months old, mommies supply started to drop. Majorly. She had to actually give you formula because mommy couldn't pump enough for you to eat.
I cried. I felt like a failure. Formula made you SO SICK. I looked for others to say that it was ok to stop breastfeeding you. That I wouldn't be a bad mom or a failure. I can't even explain what that felt like.
Well mommy sought out alot of help from everyone. I started taking a medicine called Domperidone. It was a miracle. It got my supply up so I could pump enough for you. Around that time you also started nursing like a champ.
I look back and I think I would have regreted stopping breastfeeding. I love everytime you nurse. It's our special time that no one else can have with you.
I love listening to you breathing and even though you squirm quite a bit now, I still love every moment and wouldn't trade it for the world.
Your birth story
I posted this awhile back on LiveJournal, so I wanted to post the link to it. I think I need to just transfer it over to here, but need to leanr a bit more about how to use this site. Anyways the link is http://campbellavery.livejournal.com/
the beginning
I'm a little late. Yes, you are about to turn 3 in June. You're about 32 months old. I've always thought about doing this for you, but somehow, I always thought I would and never ended up doing it.....SO..here I go.
The plan is that I will write you daily. I will tell you about what is going on currently and tell a little bit about my memories of our past 2.5 years together.
Today we slept in and then we went to lunch with your uncle Kyle. You adore your uncles so much and I am happy that they are in your life. I remember when Kevin was born. I vaguely remember Kyle being born. I remember being at my dads house(grandpa Craig) when he and Sandra left for the hospital. Before he left he told me to call my aunt Stephanie and Uncle Steven. Their phone number was very close to something like 911...lol...so I called and well, dialed wrong and called 911. I hung up on them and they of course called back. I am unsure why this certain memory sticks out more than others, but it does.
Anyways, after breakfast/lunch we came home and started to clean. At 2:30pm you would be heading off with daddy Justin. I really want you to have a relationship with him, but it hurts mommy to see you want him more and more and miss him. Even though I encourage it, it hurts deeply to be away from you.
Tonight you were following your uncle downstairs and you tripped on a pair of your shoes that you left right in the middle of the stairway. BOOM..and a cry is what I heard. I cuddled you into my arms. You hurt your nose.
Your vocabulary is growing every day. I love hearing you talk and yet it saddens me to see my little girl grow up. Tonight you were counting with your uncle and then you said A B to mommy...the beginning to the alphabet. Something so simple and so small brought tears to your moms eyes.
You have also become close with Maximus(Max) your Golden Retriever puppy that is almost 4 months old. His birthday is Oct. 22, 2008. He is growing just as much as you are, just at a much faster rate. Tonight you hugged him and said "i love you more maximus". I truely believe that you are starting to feel love for other things. As I see you hugging your bears and your dolls and the way that you treat your stuff. I also see how you interact with others, children and animals and I believe that there is that small fire that I had in me when I was your age. I hope that I can be half the woman my great grandma(your great great grandma) was and how she fostered the love, patience, kindness, and the ability to forgive in me. I'll tell you more about her in the future. She was a WONDERFUL woman and I know she is watching over us. I wish you could meet her she could meet you, but maybe in your dreams or maybe before you were sent to me from heaven you have spent time with her.
I never knew I could love as much as I do for you. This was my dream. This is what I was meant to be. A mom. My pregnancy with you was very rough and kinda miserable, but I would do it all over again to have you in my life.
I pondered how much I loved you yesterday or Saturday as it was Valentine's Day. I bought you like 6 bears and 8 balloons and misc. things. Not that you actually needed them, I just like to and enjoy spoiling you. Although I must admit, you really enjoy the cards you recieved in the mail from our best friends in Seattle Bridget and Aiden. Mommy misses them dearly and I know you miss Aiden. It was my hope that I could raise you with a best friend and even though they are kinda far, we'll all be best friends for life.
We had a very good holiday. Mommy made yummy steak and potatoes and cut up fruits and veggies for you. Then we cuddled. I miss having someone in my life. I wish I would have gotten something, but then I realized I did....you. I love you Valentine.
Well that's it for tonights post. I always want you to remember one thing...you are MY entire world and I wouldn't trade or change that for anything.
The plan is that I will write you daily. I will tell you about what is going on currently and tell a little bit about my memories of our past 2.5 years together.
Today we slept in and then we went to lunch with your uncle Kyle. You adore your uncles so much and I am happy that they are in your life. I remember when Kevin was born. I vaguely remember Kyle being born. I remember being at my dads house(grandpa Craig) when he and Sandra left for the hospital. Before he left he told me to call my aunt Stephanie and Uncle Steven. Their phone number was very close to something like 911...lol...so I called and well, dialed wrong and called 911. I hung up on them and they of course called back. I am unsure why this certain memory sticks out more than others, but it does.
Anyways, after breakfast/lunch we came home and started to clean. At 2:30pm you would be heading off with daddy Justin. I really want you to have a relationship with him, but it hurts mommy to see you want him more and more and miss him. Even though I encourage it, it hurts deeply to be away from you.
Tonight you were following your uncle downstairs and you tripped on a pair of your shoes that you left right in the middle of the stairway. BOOM..and a cry is what I heard. I cuddled you into my arms. You hurt your nose.
Your vocabulary is growing every day. I love hearing you talk and yet it saddens me to see my little girl grow up. Tonight you were counting with your uncle and then you said A B to mommy...the beginning to the alphabet. Something so simple and so small brought tears to your moms eyes.
You have also become close with Maximus(Max) your Golden Retriever puppy that is almost 4 months old. His birthday is Oct. 22, 2008. He is growing just as much as you are, just at a much faster rate. Tonight you hugged him and said "i love you more maximus". I truely believe that you are starting to feel love for other things. As I see you hugging your bears and your dolls and the way that you treat your stuff. I also see how you interact with others, children and animals and I believe that there is that small fire that I had in me when I was your age. I hope that I can be half the woman my great grandma(your great great grandma) was and how she fostered the love, patience, kindness, and the ability to forgive in me. I'll tell you more about her in the future. She was a WONDERFUL woman and I know she is watching over us. I wish you could meet her she could meet you, but maybe in your dreams or maybe before you were sent to me from heaven you have spent time with her.
I never knew I could love as much as I do for you. This was my dream. This is what I was meant to be. A mom. My pregnancy with you was very rough and kinda miserable, but I would do it all over again to have you in my life.
I pondered how much I loved you yesterday or Saturday as it was Valentine's Day. I bought you like 6 bears and 8 balloons and misc. things. Not that you actually needed them, I just like to and enjoy spoiling you. Although I must admit, you really enjoy the cards you recieved in the mail from our best friends in Seattle Bridget and Aiden. Mommy misses them dearly and I know you miss Aiden. It was my hope that I could raise you with a best friend and even though they are kinda far, we'll all be best friends for life.
We had a very good holiday. Mommy made yummy steak and potatoes and cut up fruits and veggies for you. Then we cuddled. I miss having someone in my life. I wish I would have gotten something, but then I realized I did....you. I love you Valentine.
Well that's it for tonights post. I always want you to remember one thing...you are MY entire world and I wouldn't trade or change that for anything.
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