the beginning

I'm a little late. Yes, you are about to turn 3 in June. You're about 32 months old. I've always thought about doing this for you, but somehow, I always thought I would and never ended up doing it.....SO..here I go.
The plan is that I will write you daily. I will tell you about what is going on currently and tell a little bit about my memories of our past 2.5 years together.
Today we slept in and then we went to lunch with your uncle Kyle. You adore your uncles so much and I am happy that they are in your life. I remember when Kevin was born. I vaguely remember Kyle being born. I remember being at my dads house(grandpa Craig) when he and Sandra left for the hospital. Before he left he told me to call my aunt Stephanie and Uncle Steven. Their phone number was very close to something like 911...lol...so I called and well, dialed wrong and called 911. I hung up on them and they of course called back. I am unsure why this certain memory sticks out more than others, but it does.
Anyways, after breakfast/lunch we came home and started to clean. At 2:30pm you would be heading off with daddy Justin. I really want you to have a relationship with him, but it hurts mommy to see you want him more and more and miss him. Even though I encourage it, it hurts deeply to be away from you.
Tonight you were following your uncle downstairs and you tripped on a pair of your shoes that you left right in the middle of the stairway. BOOM..and a cry is what I heard. I cuddled you into my arms. You hurt your nose.
Your vocabulary is growing every day. I love hearing you talk and yet it saddens me to see my little girl grow up. Tonight you were counting with your uncle and then you said A B to mommy...the beginning to the alphabet. Something so simple and so small brought tears to your moms eyes.
You have also become close with Maximus(Max) your Golden Retriever puppy that is almost 4 months old. His birthday is Oct. 22, 2008. He is growing just as much as you are, just at a much faster rate. Tonight you hugged him and said "i love you more maximus". I truely believe that you are starting to feel love for other things. As I see you hugging your bears and your dolls and the way that you treat your stuff. I also see how you interact with others, children and animals and I believe that there is that small fire that I had in me when I was your age. I hope that I can be half the woman my great grandma(your great great grandma) was and how she fostered the love, patience, kindness, and the ability to forgive in me. I'll tell you more about her in the future. She was a WONDERFUL woman and I know she is watching over us. I wish you could meet her she could meet you, but maybe in your dreams or maybe before you were sent to me from heaven you have spent time with her.
I never knew I could love as much as I do for you. This was my dream. This is what I was meant to be. A mom. My pregnancy with you was very rough and kinda miserable, but I would do it all over again to have you in my life.
I pondered how much I loved you yesterday or Saturday as it was Valentine's Day. I bought you like 6 bears and 8 balloons and misc. things. Not that you actually needed them, I just like to and enjoy spoiling you. Although I must admit, you really enjoy the cards you recieved in the mail from our best friends in Seattle Bridget and Aiden. Mommy misses them dearly and I know you miss Aiden. It was my hope that I could raise you with a best friend and even though they are kinda far, we'll all be best friends for life.
We had a very good holiday. Mommy made yummy steak and potatoes and cut up fruits and veggies for you. Then we cuddled. I miss having someone in my life. I wish I would have gotten something, but then I realized I did....you. I love you Valentine.
Well that's it for tonights post. I always want you to remember one thing...you are MY entire world and I wouldn't trade or change that for anything.